{"id":8278,"date":"2025-07-24T15:51:23","date_gmt":"2025-07-24T07:51:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/?p=8278"},"modified":"2025-07-24T15:54:30","modified_gmt":"2025-07-24T07:54:30","slug":"tesis-yang-tak-pernah-siap-siap","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/?p=8278","title":{"rendered":"Tesis Yang Tak Pernah Siap-Siap"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Kau pernah tak…
Buka fail thesis.
Dan kau baca balik,
Sampai satu masa \u2014 kau tak faham apa yang kau tulis.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ya\u2026 itu kau,
Yang tulis.
Yang karang dengan penuh semangat… tiga bulan lepas.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sekarang, rasa macam baca artikel orang asing.
Macam baca jurnal dari alam lain.
Kau garu kepala,
\u201cApa benda aku cuba sampaikan ni sebenarnya?\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Dan waktu tu kau sedar…
Yang paling susah,
Bukan cari rujukan.
Bukan buat analisis.
Tapi untuk terus muncul \u2014
Setiap hari,
Depan dokumen yang sama,
Dengan semangat yang makin pudar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ada orang kata,
\u201cTesis ni bukan untuk orang pandai.
Tapi untuk orang yang\u00a0keras kepala<\/em>.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Yang bangun semula walau dah tersadai.
Yang tetap taip walau tak yakin.
Yang muncul\u2026
Walaupun supervisor dah tak tanya apa-apa.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Kau tahu kenapa tesis tak pernah siap?
Sebab kita tunggu rasa yakin tu datang.
Sedangkan yakin tu tak datang sendiri.
Kita kena kejar.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sebab itu…
Tesis yang siap \u2014
Bukan yang paling hebat.
Tapi yang paling tekal.
Yang paling degil untuk terus hidup,
Walau dengan satu perenggan sehari.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Jadi kalau ketika ni kau termenung,
Tengok cursor yang berkelip tanpa arah \u2014
Tulis je!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Sebab kadang-kadang,
Tesis bukan tentang siapa paling bijak\u2026
Tapi siapa paling tak mengalah.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Kau pernah tak…Buka fail thesis.Dan kau baca balik,Sampai satu masa \u2014 kau tak faham apa yang kau tulis. Ya\u2026 itu kau,Yang tulis.Yang karang dengan penuh semangat… tiga bulan lepas. Sekarang, rasa macam baca artikel orang asing.Macam baca jurnal dari alam lain.Kau garu kepala,\u201cApa benda aku cuba sampaikan ni sebenarnya?\u201d Dan waktu tu kau sedar…Yang paling […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":6946,"featured_media":8254,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_uag_custom_page_level_css":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[110,5],"tags":[43,42,1113],"class_list":["post-8278","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-research","category-teaching","tag-motivation","tag-student","tag-supervisor"],"uagb_featured_image_src":{"full":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM.png",869,868,false],"thumbnail":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM-150x150.png",150,150,true],"medium":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM-300x300.png",300,300,true],"medium_large":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM-768x767.png",640,639,true],"large":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM.png",640,639,false],"1536x1536":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM.png",869,868,false],"2048x2048":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM.png",869,868,false],"slider-thumb":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM-542x352.png",542,352,true],"pop-thumb":["https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/890\/2025\/07\/Screenshot-2025-07-24-at-2.38.00-PM-542x340.png",542,340,true]},"uagb_author_info":{"display_name":"Dr. Shah","author_link":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/?author=6946"},"uagb_comment_info":0,"uagb_excerpt":"Kau pernah tak…Buka fail thesis.Dan kau baca balik,Sampai satu masa \u2014 kau tak faham apa yang kau tulis. Ya\u2026 itu kau,Yang tulis.Yang karang dengan penuh semangat… tiga bulan lepas. Sekarang, rasa macam baca artikel orang asing.Macam baca jurnal dari alam lain.Kau garu kepala,\u201cApa benda aku cuba sampaikan ni sebenarnya?\u201d Dan waktu tu kau sedar…Yang paling…","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8278","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/6946"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8278"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8278\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8281,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8278\/revisions\/8281"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/8254"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8278"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8278"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/people.utm.my\/shahabuddin\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8278"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}