Off lately, I notice that there are so many task forces that I involve in. There are times when I feel suffocated. Not in a physical sense. Emotionally, I feel suffocated. I try to change my routine. I come to work as early as I could. I find that I am able to get more things done when I come early. But I find it difficult to stay focused after Zuhr, as if my “battery” needs to be recharged. I try to sleep a bit before Zuhr but often than not, without noticing the time, it is already Zuhr and I miss the chance to have a quick nap.
Since the leaking pipe incident, I admit that it takes me quite a long time to settle down. Being a nomad for a while certainly gives me a different perspective on certain things but I realise that to get myself adjusted to new routines are not as fluid as before. Am I getting older?
Sometimes, when I feel too overwhelmed with things, what I would do is to have a priority list of what I should do urgently. Most of the times even though it is not easy to put certain things under “not urgent” category, I know that I have to be firm in this. There are times when I say “NO” and can’t hardly remain patient due to indecisiveness of certain people. Yup. My patience is running thin.
Yet, I would ask myself “If others are indecisive, what I should do?” There are times when I ask some seniors what they want from me or what is the direction of a certain task because I just cannot tolerate with indecisiveness any more.
I might be appeared as rude but in this case, I hate the culture of lots-of-talking-yet-doing-less or what I called as “Pung pang, pung pang”. How I wish I have one solid uninterrupted week!
COVID-19 cases are increasing today (Tuesday, 8 September 2020). 100 cases. Do I have to work from home again? Why do I secretly wish that ………. (fill in the blank).