My dad passed away in 2009. It has been 10 years I celebrate Eid without him. My mom passed away in 2017. This year will be my second year celebrating Eid without her. Since her passing, Eid is not the same. I don’t have any baju kurung or things that I normally do since she passed away. It is difficult to keep certain traditions when she was no longer around. There are times when I feel that I don’t want to spring clean the house even though I know that there will be guests coming etc.
I started my Eid break today whereas many of my colleagues have started their break since yesterday. I don’t know why I feel different and I have this feeling since last year. I know that it is not easy to deal with this alone. So, I am grateful that I still have my siblings to celebrate the Eid together.