An offer they can’t hardly refuse

I taught them last year when they were form 4 when I did Latihan Ikhtisas.  Now, they are form 5 taking SPM.  Last year, when I offered them an external reward (using operant conditioning principle), only three of them got the reward.  This time around, I also make the same offer.  But, of course, it would be slightly different from last year.

Seeing the empty page with only “Target SPM” written, I bet they are thinking very carefully about it.  I know perhaps all of them are thinking how on earth they can achieve the target that they set for themselves.  I want to instill self-belief in them.  It is not easy to do so but I am doing my best here to help.

I went to school today.  Like what I have expected (based on previous experience), only the girls did the homework that I gave two weeks ago.  How time flies!  The second tuition would be this coming Friday.  Ita asked me what we should bring for them (another external reward).  I was thinking buying the biscuits that I bought for the teachers so they can eat that during the break.  They are 43 students.  So, a packet or two of biscuits won’t be enough for everybody.   Let’s see how it goes.  We plan to do summary activity.  I need to find some examples and make copy for both class.   I guess the SUB printing shop would be opened a bit late since tomorrow, we are going to have gotong-royong.  

It is challenging to be educators now

The recent incident about a student who was canned by a teacher because she called him as “aqua” (Translated: effeminate person) has caused an uproar among teachers, students, netizens and whatsnot. 

The way I see it if I were the student, I would definitely get “double” from my parents.  That’s why I never told them if I was punished by my teachers at school.  Their perception is I must have done “something” to make the teachers to punish me.  No explanation needed.  I would always be the one who have done something wrong, not the other way around.  Parents now?  Well, they are different.  The parents who are like my parents are extinct.  This is the reality now.  

UTMconfession

I know about its existence last year (2018) when I did my Latihan Ikhtisas.  I have no issue about its existence and whatever posts that people write.  A similar kind of blog such as IIUMconfession has existed few years back earlier.  For IIUMconfession, most of the times, the students or former students of IIUM would write about their experience learning and studying at IIUM.  When they talk about former lecturers, even though some of the lecturers are well-known as “killer lecturers”, they would write something positive about those killer lecturers.  They talk about the values they learn from them.  [Note: There are also non-IIUM students or former students who post their thoughts at IIUMconfession 😀 ]

UTMconfession?  It is totally a different game.  Some might say that I am bias because I didn’t graduate from UTM.  But the way I see it, UTMconfession has become a place where students defame, malign, slander (you name it) either the university where they go or went to study i.e. UTM or the people who teach or taught them or anyone that they have encountered for various purposes.  Don’t get me wrong.  There are some positive uplifting posts by various individuals (who are mostly students or former students) too.  

I am not saying that one could or should not give bad comments on the institution i.e. UTM or its staff (academics or non-academics), but from the way I see it, majority of the bad comments are baseless.  Only few can be considered as genuine cases that worth to be taken into consideration.  

For example, if you get failing marks, rather than just go straight away to “attack” the person who teaches you, please have self-reflection first.  Why do you get such marks on a first place?  Most of the time (99.9%) it is due to students’ effort.  As university students, it is not about judging how other people teach you, but rather judging how you learn from this person who teaches you.  Capisce?  

You might say that “Well, even though he/she has a PhD, but still he/she is a lousy lecturer“.  I do admit that some of my colleagues might not emphasize on their teaching, rather than research but they are the “minuscule organism” at this university.  Majority of us are passionate educators.  Every semester during semester break especially, some of us attend workshops/training etc. to improve our teaching strategies.  Some of us take the effort to change or adjust certain things that we normally do in class.  To have a fresher style, we go extra miles to keep ourselves updated with the latest development in teaching and learning.  All of these take efforts and time.  Students don’t see the behind-the-scene things. 

Do they know that we have to juggle with so many things other than teaching?  Do they know that whatever things that we do in class will be evaluated, audited and monitored?  So, when you guys give “lousy evaluation” on our ePPP, sometimes it does make others to raise questions about what and how we teach in class.  This is especially if we are teaching different sections, and one section give us good rating about our teaching and another section give us bad rating.  We are the same.  How can we get two different ratings?  It is you guys, students who have different perceptions about us.  It’s ok.  We are not stopping you from giving us bad evaluation if you feel dissatisfied with us.  You are human being with feelings so, it is your right to let your emotion known to us.  But you have to do it with hikmah (wisdom).  That’s something that you need to learn.  

Note: If you are dissatisfied with the university or the lecturer who teaches/taught you, please use proper channel.  Don’t use UTMConfession with the hope that anyone that you think has nothing better to do than to entertain your slandering complaint would read it.  Do you think that by posting such thing would change the situation according to what you wish?  It might backfire you instead.  

A dilemma indeed

The KPIs for university lecturers are not for faint-hearted people.   Indeed.  But sometimes, there are daredevil ones who would dare to do any and everything to make sure they hit their KPIs with flying colors.   Slow professor principle?  Definitely not on these peps’ vocabulary.  They are one on the Shinkansen mode.  Always.  So, anything that block their way will be bulldozed indefinitely. 

But the reality starts to show that the quantity does not justify the quality.  People have started to talk about it.  When asked about the practice of individuals who use other people’s students work without their contribution, critical people like Tan Sri Rafidah Aziz does say something spot on.  

For me, I believe that we can’t hurry to be “matured”.  It is as if you are taking a hormone booster to get old quickly.  Does anyone want to get old early?  Of course, there are outliers who excel in certain fields at young age and in academia, these people can be exemplified in the way they rise to the social academic ranking faster than the average.  Some are really good.  But I am not like them.  I am a late bloomer.  This is what I notice since young.  So, I am not pushing myself to be on Shinkansen mode.   

The incident that happened to one of my seniors in April 2019 left indelible mark that makes me think to reevaluate and reprioritise my goals in life.  Now, I believe that if I improve myself in the way I relate myself to Allah, it will be translated in the way I lead my life as His ‘Abd.  Even though in one of the verses in the Qur’an states

Yet, I believe that what is good in this world does not mean or equate with money or social status.  Allah Knoweth the best and I pray May He Bless me with the best gladtiding.  

To all teachers …

When I did my Latihan Ikhtisas, the English teachers in my school attended a workshop/seminar conducted by Google Educator Group Johor.  Well, since I am not the “real” teacher, for obvious reason, I was not selected to attend the seminar because there was an allocation for teachers to attend such event by school.  I was not a teacher = Not selected.  Kind of sad to be in such equation.  But, that’s life.  For all English teachers, check this out.