Matriculation Centre? Should it be abolished?

My pre-tertiary education was at IIUM matriculation centre.  1996.  The centre was in Lembah Pantai.  We used the buildings that belong to UM and Institut Bahasa (Language Institute).  I had a marvelous time during my matriculation days.  I learned about life, adulthood and being more independent there.  It was the first time I have to be away from my family (I am a Johorean).  

I have friends that I have known since my matric years whom I still keep in touch until now.  But unlike now, my matriculation programme took me two years to finish.  So, in a way it is like I am taking STPM.  No difference.   

The issue now, some perceive that ex-matriculation students are less matured etc.  I beg to differ.  I think it will always bog down to the fact that how adaptable students are to further their studies at university level after they finish one year of matriculation programme.  In this case, I do agree with DVCAI of UTM.  

What are the impacts of Latihan Ikhtisas?

I have been wondering about it myself.  Well, to tell the truth, what I gain from the LI is a new experience of teaching adolescents (and its challenges).  Well, that’s it.  Networking?  Indeed.  Networking with the school.  Yup.  I still conduct tuition class and whatnot as a form of my after-LI-service.  

Making impact or difference in the students lives?  How on earth would I know that?!!!  I am not going to be overambitious on this part.  After all, only Allah knows best on this matter.  

Other than that?  Nothing much.  For example, did I get any  Industrial grant?  Nope.  So, it does resonate with the survey findings.  

Well, perhaps I can tell what I have gone through instead.  Yup.  It might take a while since I need to look at evidences that I collected in various forms such as daily journal, students reflective notes and such.  

I have posted some personal rambling on various posts.  Here are some of them:

Things that I produce when I did Latihan Ikhtisas_Part 1

Things that I produce when I did Latihan Ikhtisas_Part 2

Teaching poetry and literature

Latihan Ikhtisas Part 1

Latihan Ikhtisas Part 2

Latihan Ikhtisas Part 3

Latihan Ikhtisas Part 4

Latihan Ikhtisas Part 5

Since when we become the dumping ground ….

It has been more than a year since I watched Malaysian TV channels (yup, I am not purposely avoid watching any of the channels, it is just that somehow the coverage at my area receives Singapore based channels better than the local ones).  I was shocked to watch the news clip about Malaysian is being a dumping ground of non-recyclable waste of developing countries.  This is a classic example of “bullying” at global level.  It is kind of ironic when the same countries propagate global warming issues, sustainability and such and yet, they “dispose” their garbage at another countries like Malaysia, Philippines,  and who-knows-what other countries might be the victims here. 

Is it ethical?  Is it morally right?

Free meal and Free Market

It is the brain idea of one of my colleagues, and thus, this project was started since Semester 1 2016/17 (on 20 November 2016 to be exact).  At first, the project only offered free meal (100 pax) but later on, the project also includes offering stationery that students might need (this is known as Free Market).  

Alhamdulillah, even though there is ups and downs of this project since it started but the people who support the cause try their very best to make sure it runs on regular basis.  It is not easy to run this project on regular basis especially it needs financial supports and also volunteers to assist us in making sure that it will be run on weekly basis.  

For semester 2 2018/19, the last Free Meal and Free Market was conducted on 2 May 2019 (a week before Ramadan).  In sha Allah it will be continued on the next semester.  I have got some of my colleagues who passed me some stuff (stationery) that they bought.  Based on my observation, black pen, foolscap paper, rulers and yellow highlighter are among the most highly-sought after stationery.  

What a true academician and scholar….

I always admire this guy since I was young (I think when I started to read about an article that he wrote in the 1990s).  To envision myself as an academic like him, it is something that I have in mind.  It is not easy to choose this path but I will try my best to stay true to myself In sha Allah.  He was one of the co-authors of Rukun Negara (I googled about this).  I guess, every time I recite Rukun Negara, it will remind me of him.  

When I heard about his passing, I am sad.  As I browsed the news to read more about him, I came across his sayingThe child is the father of the man. Educate and groom the young person, and he will grow up to be the right kind of adult. If you wait until he becomes an adult, it is too late”

What a true academic until the end!  

 

What does it mean to be a truly educated person?

As I marked the exam papers, I could not help from wondering this thing “What does it mean to be a truly educated person?”.  Looking at some of the lackluster inarticulate answers of my PG students, I was wondering what went wrong in my class.  Did I emphasis the wrong thing?  Did I emphasis exam results than what they should know regardless of whatever grade they might get? 

I encourage my students to be reflective.  I give them reflective questions.  When I found a note about what kinds of questions that self-regulated learners ask themselves, I share the note with my students.  In one class, I discussed with them about self-regulation model/theory and using the note, we discussed about how we can use it in different context of our lives.  I did my best in this case to guide my students not to be good test takers, but true learners.  But again, “you can lead a horse to water, but you can’t make it drink“.

But one thing that I notice is not many of my students are avid readers.  Meaning, not many of them like to read.  When I asked some of them if they have the textbook that I have recommended, NONE of them have the textbook (this was my UG class).  Unfortunately, it happens not only in my UG class, but also in my PG class.  The only difference is for my PG class, they realise the importance of having a textbook in the middle of semester, so by week 10 (there are only 14 weeks in one semester),  majority have the textbook.  Well, better late than never.  The UG class?  I rest my case. Perhaps they did borrow the textbook from the library and it is just that I don’t know about it (husn zahn in Arabic – or in English it means think positively or in Malay – bersangka baik)

 

Great things are done by a series of small things brought together

I was marking the personality psychology paper.  I am sad.  I thought that they could answer well because they were allowed to bring in notes.  Well, apparently, some of them didn’t study well.  It can be seen from their answers.  A copy -paste answer with lack of articulation.  So, I decided to take a break for a few minutes by checking my email.  Sengtat has promised me to submit a part of the first chapter of his thesis.  I have yet to receive any email from him yet.  Sigh. 

As I browse the title and sender of the emails that I received, my eyes caught something.   “Thank you, Dr Hadijah”. 

Jolyn gave me an email to thank me for the best wishes card that I gave them yesterday (the first student who did so).  I never thought and expected any student to thank me.  After all, it is just a card.  

But, I want to make difference in my students’ life (in positive ways).  Like what my mentors have done for me.  For example, Yedullah Kazmi gave me books, pencil and whatsnot.  Every time I read the books that he gave me, I always remember the time when I was his student.  Even though he used to call me SII (stupid, idiot, ignoramus), but I never sulked or felt bad about it.  I consider it as a form of endearment.  What a heck!  It is not easy to be the chosen one to be called as such.   

But, I do believe that we need to invest in relationship.  It is quite easy to invest in it using money, but most difficult one is time and concern (care?).   

I don’t know how far my effort will leave its impact, but I do believe that “Great things are done by a series of small things brought together

Diberi betis hendak peha (similar proverb in English: Give them an inch and they’ll take a mile)

I have taught this course more than one semester.  It has been more than 5 years in fact.  I am not saying that I am an expert in this subject matter but I know the difficulty of remembering many theories related to personality which belong to different schools of thoughts.  It is not easy.  So, to help the students in this matter, I allow them to bring few pages (A4 size) of notes that they can bring to the exam hall.  

But I never thought that they would exchange their notes among themselves during the exam.  I never anticipate this thing could happen.  This was the first incident that happened in five years (and I hope this would be the last).  This is akin to cheating because you are looking at other people’s notes, rather than on your own.  I was informed by a student who saw this and I double checked it.  When I walked around nearby the conspirators, I noticed that there were notes with different hand-writing on both sides of them.  I knew instantly that what had been reported is true.  Indeed.

I didn’t want to spoil the “mood” so, I just kept it to myself.  But I would definitely not let this thing go without any punishment.  This is a classic example of “Give them an inch and they’ll take a mile” or in Malay “Diberi betis hendak peha

Assessment of learning? Assessment for learning? Assessment as learning?: Which is which?

There are several types of assessments: 1) Assessment of learning, 2) Assessment for learning and 3) Assessment as learning

Assessment of learning

This refers to summative assessment.  It could be in a form of final examination or any examination that meant to see to what extent students have understood certain concepts.  

Assessment for learning

This refers to formative assessment.  One of the main purposes of formative assessment is to  see to what extent teachers could improve their teaching and support that they provide to students based on students’ performance.  For example, a quiz that is given to students based on certain topics covered.  Based on the quiz results, teacher would make a decision for improvement of teaching and learning activities in class.  

Assessment as learning

This refers to reflective self-evaluation.  This type of assessment is not meant for grading purposes but it is meant to help students to understand themselves better in terms of what they have learned and how well they have understood the concepts/topics they have learned.  

Can a quiz be formative and reflective self-evaluation at the same time?

For me, it can be when you let the students decide if they want to quiz to be graded or ungraded.  Meaning, they can take any quiz that I give without feeling pressure of being graded and this would be “assessment as learning” – because they take the quiz as a means to help them reflect on their understanding and learning i.e. reflective self-evaluation.  But at the same time, the same quiz can be considered as formative assessment [assessment for learning] if the students want the marks of the quiz to be graded.  

How can we (as teachers) implement all three assessments? 

In my case, what I normally do is, I have a mixture of assessments that I give to my students such as quiz, presentation, report and final exam.  Final exam is an example of summative assessment i.e. assessment of learning.  For quiz, I make it in such a way that there will be graded quizzes (formative assessment or assessment for learning) and there are also ungraded quizzes (assessment as learning).  For the ungraded quizzes , I normally give after we have finished discussing about a topic, for instance.  But for graded quizzes, it comprises of several topics.  So, in this case prior to take any graded quiz, students have self-assessed themselves on any given topic.  Of course, since it is ungraded, I notice that some students don’t take it seriously and thus, will not make any attempt to take the ungraded quiz.  I have seen it in the recent courses that I taught this semester (Semester 2, 2018/2019). 

What should I do then? 

Well, I give soft reminder several times but in the end of the day, I have to respect the students’ decision.  If they think it is the best for them to skip any ungraded quizzes, it is their right.  I have no right to force them in their learning.  After all, as adult learners, they should be responsible towards their learning.  They are not secondary school students.  The major difference between secondary school students and university students is for secondary school students, they need extra guidance when it comes to helping them in decision making.  University students?  What a heck!  They are adults, and they should be responsible and accountable with whatever decision that they make.  Welcome to adulthood!

Thank your for being there for me_Part 2

She took my Research Methodology class.  Then she took my personality psychology and human development classes as well.  She was a “darling” of any supervisor.  She is tenacious, diligent and hardworking.  Never give up easily.

A senior already “assigned” her to be her supervisee but she came to meet the programme coordinator to request of changing supervisor.  Yup.  She wanted me as her supervisor.  This was after the semester of “Minah t test tak tahu” incident.  Apparently, due to that incident, some students were persistent to have me as their supervisor (a reason only known to them until now and Allah.  I don’t ask them “why” they wanted me as their supervisor so, let’s have a good assumption about their intention).

She was well-prepared since the first day we met for supervision.  She remembered what I told her in my research methodology class that as a teacher, it is better if they do an action research to improve their teaching practice.  By conducting research on their teaching practice, they would improve their teaching practice and know how to improve their students’ learning experience as well.  

She was advanced in doing her RS1 and thus, I suggested her to start collecting data for RS2 while completing her RS1.  She did that.  But, on her final semester (the semester she had to complete her RS2 too), she received news about her mom.  Her mom got cancer (I didn’t know the type of cancer) stage 4.  She was crying when she called me to break the news.  I told her to calm down and meet me to discuss how to finish her RS2.  She has to go back to Kuching every weekend to accompany her mom (she is teaching in JB).  

We discussed about new deadlines and tasks to be completed.  She requested me to monitor her progress.  I didn’t want her to push herself too much in this case.  She told me that she needed to finish her masters because it was a promise to her mom.  It was not an easy task to honour her request.  I told her to give our best shots.

She kept me updated with her writing progress and her mom’s condition regularly.  Often than not, she could not be as articulated as before because there were so many things on her mind.  I told her to keep on writing and don’t worry too much about grammar or sentence structure.  I would help her with that.

The period of supervising her was not easy.  It was one of the most challenging times because I was badly affected by the previous incident with “Minah t test tak tahu”.  I was “healing” and time was not on my side.  So, even though it was quite difficult for me to trust my students and to let them to trust me, I just pray that things would turn out well for both of us.

Alhamdulillah, she completed her masters degress with flying colors.  There were times when she wanted to give up but she persisted.  I told her that I would never let her to give up easily.  We were in this together.  

Since graduating, we still keep in touch with each other through Whatsapp.  But, every time I see this picture and the watch (that I still keep in my office), it gives me a warm fuzzy feeling that remind me that whatever things that I do matter as a lecturer, teacher, supervisor or mentor.   

P.S: Felicia Sim, thank you for being there for me even though you always think that I help you a lot.  Nope.  I think it is the other way around.

Note: Felicia’s mom passed away couples of days before Teacher’s Day 2018.  When I wished her Happy Teacher’s Day, she broke the news and told me that she was still in Kuching.  She is not married yet but I do hope that she will find her life partner ASAP.